Jeff Klein said, "I was a believer too, until about 10 years ago. I thought I had a relationship with God too, but I realized that it was just a placebo."
It's good that you admit such a truth. You faked it. It was just a placebo. You (and many others on this site) had a false conversion. You never knew the Lord. Read Mark 4 to see what happened, and then www.needGod.com for what you can do about it.